Retrospecting

I wonder how unhealthy retrospecting gets to be when you do it so often. Every now and then, I look at the archives of my blog and compare how I articulate now from then. Embarrassingly enough, I come across my other, older blogs and dump my head into my hand (can anyone say sugar high-attention-reception-deficit?). There's a lesson to be learnt here: read your old blogs. Yes. Read them. Especially if you sound like a self-esteem-lacking l0ser. :P Then, take that gnarly, munching pain of embarrassment and spit it as far as you can (I'd say the old phrase "suck it up" but you can imagine unpreferable places it'd get stuck in) and stare at the gunk and say "Sucker!" Stand up tall, do a victory dance or dramatic, operatic rendition of "We Will Rock You", and then stare at it. Turn around, shrug, and walk away.

Grasp and violently yank that dignity from humiliation, all whilst under the facade of apathy.

I interrupt that thought with this disclaimer: pride that evolves into arrogance is no excuse for a reaction to humilitation. You can just as well take the blows silently and offer it as a spiritual sacrifice for the poor souls in purgatory, this way the glory doesn't stay, ferment, and grow stale because it's stuck with you. I have my own ways of facing personal humilitation deriving from my own actions, but I have a good enough head to realise when enough pride is enough.

With that said, remember the pathetic folks who feel like they've nothing worth living for and they go about creating unproductive trash. Usually they just need someone to steer them in the right direction somehow.

Now that I've finished my Save the Idiots Foundation shpeel, I realise that I've been an active member of the virtual world for about three years. I remember the time before "emoticons", "IM", and "google" were a part of my daily vocabulary. I also remember when I thought the I-net (yes, only true geeks say it that way) was a nice thing, but completely silly. I still think the I-net is silly but only when I come across fools who broadcast themselves all over the virtual world. I've come to find it fascinating how much more easily people are connected and that hikikomori can still be reclusive, become famous for stupid, home-made videos, and remain physically reclusive and be okay with being reclusive. But beside that point, it is relieving to know there is a broader range of people you can possibly get to know beside your next-door neighbours (funny note: I actually don't know my own next-door neighbours well at all, though that's due to being military and moving so much) and a wealth of information one can get their hands on (almost literally). The thought is now turning toward obvious points, so I'm going to stop there. It's just interesting how much technology has made an intricate path into the average, daily life of the current age.

As I grow older, wisdom -thankfully- prevails. That means bedtime before 2am, folks. Yes, 20-year-olds have nap times, food times, and bedtimes, and I am of no exception. Even if I actually want to work on a paper. /pouts.

P.S. If anyone cares to share their thoughts, please tell me whether or not you believe the last comma before "and" in a list is acceptable or not. Thank-you.